Schools so screwed to an extent nowadays. PARTIES? mmmmmmmmmm people are giving such a bigdeal over not being invited.Farout and then people get into it and tell people off what the fucks up with that? Stop making a deal out of this. Oh and also what is up with my year co ordinator, telling EVERYONE off one after the other its like having PMS 24/7 with the anger pointed out 10 times worst then any average peple. ALSO she has to get into EVERYBODYS business. so fraking noisy! Asking everyone for information about there friends peoples personal information like wtf? If we want you to know these things we would go to you. You dont need to go ask our friends behind our back on information about us. Its our PERSONAL life i think thats why its called PERSONAL life. I also do not lke the way she intimidates her students and makes us feel insignificant and stupid and also ALWAYS wrong. Oh and the time during our english yearlies some students finished early so she went down and collected the exams and then the english co-ordinaor was like who collected all the papers you are ment to collect the papers at the END of the exam so it allows those students to check and for insurance with exams .OH YOU soooo smart.

On a better note SCHOOL HAS OFFICIALLY ENDED !! WOOOOOO HOLIDAYS im pretty excited ! my holidays are so packed mm :( many things to look forward too OMGSH FORMAL SHOPPING ! *fingers crossed* i find THE dress! ;)

the twentysixth of september two thousand and eight. It was jsut one year ago when it all happened and what would of been the annivarsary:isnt. I thought that i would be over it now but why do i still reminisce? Is it jsut memories so its inevitable to think about it? or am i just simply not over it? The questions in my mind that have played over for a while now and if only someone could come along and give me these answers, that sure would help me. Reality is it - that its not gonig to happen because nobody could possibly know how I feel besides myself and i dont know myself so... HA, oh joy! Many many times ive believed i was over you and ive started to feel for other ones but somehow i always end up where i started.Why am i holding onto this? why does this stupid date still matter to me? FUCK IT ! wished it was that easy like just saying it. I gues i still have feelings but why.. why wont they go away? I've alreayd accepted that nothing can go back to the way things were, you suck now. I dont even consider you one of those interesting people i turn to talk to or even that are close to me. So why do i still hold onto the memories and the feelings that were times ago? I really hate that. Time should jsut hurry up. It is taking FOREVER for me.. You know what time ? I HAVE BEEN PATIENT ! why cant it heal faster then :(

I Can't Wait Til You're Gone Away Cuz Then I Can Move On I Can't Wait Til You're Gone Away Cuz Then I Can Move On And I Can Say I'm Finally Over You I'm , I'm Finally Over You I'm , I'm Finally Over I Can't Wait Til You're Gone Away Cuz Then I Can Move On Can't Wait Til You Are Gone

From this point on i can move on its one year so move on :)

" I never thoguht you could break me apart. I`ll keep a sinister smile and a hold on my heart." ohk i just realised that i blog very few times and when i do: im annoyed, but im not that agro really .. lol anyways today is another day that im going to be talknig negatively. Me and Tai have just broken up and i feel shit as .. shitty,disappointed, and pissed. The 7 months that we spent together was great and he made me feel so happy and in love but the lat 2 months were jsut terrible.To me he changed to a different person a guy totally opposite of the guy i feel in lvoe witH TO QUITE A DICKHEAD! and i hate it.. everything we had together it  seems like a lie now and i dont even know him anymore becase hsi changed.. i want him back the old one , but as much as i force myself to think that he will be like the way he was before and our relationship will be like it was before, its not. Thats why i need to move on and face the truth. Loves hard to find , hurts and people change.. i fucking hate it so much.i never knew that it could hurt sooo much from a breakup.A boy could hurt me soo much and yet at the same time still be the one i love.Well at least i loved the old him. my heart is </3. but im still fine ... mayb one day in the very distant future he`ll change back tot he way he wa before

Well i have to say this year has been a pretty good yr i loved it . Friends, family and study all went well . =) Through this yr ive learnt alot and i havent gotten in trouble much so im happy LOL im going to rememebr  you 2007 as one of my funnest highschool years. From my precious school moments in class with Alicia Gyndee and Nhuy to the moments with Wendy and I and cant forget all the moments with my smart cockie tessa
i feel sad tht this year is over and 08 is coming i dont know how its going to be on 08 ... new class new classmates maybe its a good thing maybe its a bad who knows .Only time will tell but for now the best thing today is just live it to the fullest.

me my mum and brother today after dinner we were talknig bout my brothers 18th birthday party. Im currently so psyched about it cos i get to bring friends along and see my old mates which are my bros friends along to :L haha =( although im not allowed to invite many friends just like 6-7 ish cos my bros friends are already gnna be like 100 people ==' so yeh mum doesnt think she can make tht much food LOL! but yehs and how i was going to go overseas too but i was only going to go if my bro went and we went with another family PLUS cos y mum said we can go america and Hong Kong too i wna go, jsut for the SHOPPING of course bwahaha ... plus im going melb for a week to for my cousins wedding CANT WAIT ! gnna be AWESOME :D haha all tht to look forward too ! ... so i felt that i should probly study and work hard for my yearlies and get a good report cos yeh if im doing all that i would like to make my parents happy too =] so

toodles ! gnan try and study hard LOL!

when we were playing the question game i asked him wats love? and yu replied "love is the affection for a person u desire a attchment a deep affection warmth a good unexplainable feeeling that a person will feel." "UNTIL ITS BROKEN" just like how i love yu and nothing will ever change dis .."
i want yu to noe i feel that way for you too .. so strongly, i love you. But is it really love?
love is such a strong word that is too over used and i have used it in my past relationships but this time its different
and this time its going to be differnet because i dont wnna say it when i dont mean it because when im ready to say it , i know it really means sumthing. those 3 words everytime i talk to yu i want to say it when your down i m jsut bursting to say it but have to keep it in cos i dnt no if its true yet . I told yu tht yu ddnt love me like love love all yu had for me is puppy love yu noe? and yu replied "watever love is the deepest meaning in the word is how i feel towards you  and it wont change" . you make me go awww to many times , you make me just wna be by your side oh too much 
i hope we stay together forever and ever because your one of a kind and that i do feel what true love is with you .. but atm ..  i lupp you tai .

Just yesturdy when me and you were talking. You mentioned this girl who yu hadnt talked to for yrs and she had the same personality as me ... yu couldnt believe you used to like and yu guys jsut started talking again. I dnno i was freaking out and was getting so worried .. like what if yu guys 
talked alot again and yu guys fell for each other? yu and her are like childhood lovers..
and i like you alot tht i would let yu be with her ... cos i would want yu to be happy. shes probably more smarter , prettier, connected , popular then me anyways ...* sighs* i just might be overreacting.
You left and then yu came back all depressed and sad and reminisce and wondering about  things ... i asked yu and yu didnt say why or what. but your my boyfriend >< your meant to trust me and tell me these things you know? our relationship is built on trust ... >< are yu trying to hide things from me i thought? .

I REALISED
that i havent been on this for 2 years,and im not bothered to change it to the real me at this time an age .SO hopefully it is dead now SO i can do my own thing and noone will read it ! . From now on this shit i type is deep .. comes from the heart . WATEVER i type is straight from the head not considering anything else .. so dont blame me is its lyk
against yu or watever .. you not evn upposed to read it so yeps =]